So, here we are! We made it safely to Bend exactly one week ago today.
It’s still so surreal to me that we actually live here. I am so very grateful to the Lord for giving us such a wonderful opportunity and to my husband for working so diligently towards our dreams. I am completely humbled to be here. I don’t think I will ever get used to seeing these beautiful mountains every day. It’s breathtaking the views I have on my morning walks.
So far, Shawn and I are really enjoying the town. Bend is much, much smaller than OKC, but I have found it so refreshing and peaceful. We were blessed with an absolutely beautiful house in a gorgeous little neighborhood called Mountain View. It’s darling and quiet and very safe. We even have a Deschutes County sheriff that lives two houses down. I feel like I live in Fairview, Eagle State. (My DH friends will appreciate that.)
The weather has been near perfect, with highs in the 60’s and bright blue, sunny skies every day. Shawn and I had made a firm decision to be more active when we moved to Oregon, and the weather has been a wonderful incentive. We walk every day around our neighborhood, sometimes multiple times a day, and we’ve been riding our bikes a bit as well. The leaves on the trees are turning, each one the most vibrant red, orange or yellow I’ve seen. The colors flow together up the trees to mimic that of a flame igniting. It’s truly spectacular.
Over the weekend, Shawn and I spent the day on Saturday exploring Old Mill District, near downtown Bend. We LOVED it. Old Mill has all the good shopping, delicious coffee and a large movie theatre, which you all know is very important to both of us. It was a lovely day to walk around and see new parts of the city. The Deschutes River runs right through Old Mill and we were able to get some good shots of it. Saturday evening was date night, and we had dinner at Deschutes Brewery & Public House and it was fantastic. The service was great, the atmosphere was fun and the food was incredible. I even found a beer that I liked! (Bend is home to nearly 20 some odd micro breweries and is famous for their local beers.) We will definitely be back.
This brings us to today. Today is Shawn’s first day at his new job! He is so excited to be there and I am so proud of him. Today is also my first day by myself, with the house and the cat. I must mention once more how grateful and humbled I am to be able to be in a position to be a full time homemaker. It is truly a dream come true for me and I am beyond thankful for a husband that fully supports my domestic passions. We don’t have children yet and so sometimes I get sideways glances from folks who don’t really get why I would stay home full time. But I truly love it. I get to maintain this lovely home we’ve been blessed with. I get to full engage with my creative side and delve into new levels of it. I get more time to not only prepare healthy meals for my husband, but to learn and teach myself more about cooking, which is such a passion of mine. I get to spend even more time with the Lord.
I’ll admit I was a touch nervous about Shawn going back to work. I had gotten so used to being by his side 24/7 for the past two weeks, I knew I’d miss him so. I was also a little nervous to be alone with my thoughts and have reality sink in. I moved away from the only place I’d ever really known as home. I moved away from my friends and my siblings, and have done remarkably well at keeping the emotional avalanche at bay. I was afraid that might all crumble today.
To borrow a line from one of my favorite Nora Ephron films, “I’ve been missing my mother so much I can hardly breathe.” I always miss my mom, sure. But it’s now fall, which is both our favorite season, hers and mine. She’d be so happy for Shawn and I and this big move, I’m sure of it. She’d love Bend. It aches a little that I can’t share it with her. I miss my youngest brother and sister and worry about them, hoping they’re doing alright. My father and I, unfortunately, are somewhat estranged as our relationship has grown quite toxic over the past year. These are the things I didn’t want to confront. These are the bitters I wanted to keep buried.
But today, the sun rose so majestically. My husband went off to work, and I started my day with some exercise. I went on a long walk afterward, turned on some worship music and just leaned into my Heavenly Father. He lifted those burdens. He wrapped me up in His arms, pointed my gaze toward the mountains and the trees and reminded me of His firm grip on my life and my heart. It’s going to be good.
So now our first days have nearly come and gone and I am so excited for what’s to come. Thank you all so much for your encouragement and support throughout this journey. It means more than you’ll ever know.